Realised i haven't posted anything for a real long time. yet again my mood is as sombre as anytime i blog. i dunno why either. too many things are pressuring me and i think im on the verge of breaking down. promos are coming, its scaring the shit of me but yet here i am blogging. cibtc is finally asking for CIIs, i wanna apply but prep course is during promos. should i or should i not apply? i cannot go for HRC, its too close to my promos alrdy. everything i am doing now is revolving around this word 'promos' i cannot take it.

There's an ache in my heart i cant describe. my friends have been telling me the same thing i heard years back. i come back and ask myself why am i still doing all this. i really dunno. everytime i hear or see something. there seems to be this force on me. this pain is not like anything i felt before. its worst than doing drills the entire day and my feet ached so badly i limp back home. its just indescribable. i tell myself again, just forget it. then when i see that face again. i forget what i told myself. im a fool. foolishly head over heels. call me stupid, call me dumb but please end my pain. why am i lingering over something that may not even go the way i want it. if you still refuse, slap me in the face and say goodbye. i cant think of the day you leave me. it would be like leaving me a tattoo i will never be gone.

i told myself to give up before, but i realised i really, really, really cannot...

How can i move on, when i'm still in love with you?.. I'm the man who cant be moved...

so come on, tell me.

so come on, tell me.