Thursday, June 12, 2008 @ 10:40 PM:
oh i feel so irritated now. i wonder when will my letter be given to be. i'm feeling so vexed now. i really dunno what to expect. luckily i dun have nightmares of this sia. otherwise, it would be so haunting. i dun wanna lose my cc position. oh please, give me my letter soon. hopefully tml. which is the next training. i need to breathe normally again. i so scared. what if i lose it. i dun think i will have the mood to take exams. i worked hard for it. to lose it, is just cruel.
i'm quite tired today. went to climb bukit timah hill today. sometimes i wonder what are the things i allow myself to do. tml i have a super long day of training yet i let myself drain it all out. it was fun, but i think i may not be able to concentrate tml. why? i dunno why either. cant seem to focus recently. everything i teach in syf i tend to shutter a little. haiz. perhaps i have been too distracted for reasons i don't know. or do i? see, i contradicted myself. AGAIN. what the hell is going on.
sometimes, dun let the joke be carried too far. it might just
bite you back.
so come on, tell me.