Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 10:06 PM:
finally, the syfoc has come to an end. this was a journey of happiness, sadness and anger. but i learnt alot from this event. from the FIs and my fellow CIs. seems like just yesterday that it was my first training at hq, and i like a blur sotong who dunno anyone. haiz, its really sad to say goodbye to this parade.
well, ystd was a great rush. after my math paper i went to hq straight. there was quite a mess due to the cadets changing their uniform parts. but soon after we headed for the indoor stadium. there was only one reharsal for the day. so alan entertain all the GOH ppl. although we have to suffer from hunger during the rehersal, we manage to come through with no casualties. so after that was a talking cock session in the function room. the management in SIS is screwed. so many restrictions. soon after, felicia, weeling and xiwen came. so went up to pass them their tickets. had one more extra. haiz. should not have happened. so then was to the form up point. waited for quite some time for the performances to end. damn sad that i didnt get to see any part of the show sia. heard the band performance was great. then to the form up point. then was the marching in. think i screwed up a bit cause i only joined in the marching after awhile after the music was playing alrdy. but nvm, wasnt very obvious la. see i write then you realise right? haha.. the parade was very SHORT. less then half an hour. LOL then was the march past.(inspection is just boring la, dun talk about it. also if you did not realise, the minister walked away even before the the PC thanked him.LMAO) so cool that they say my name. hahaha..
but when there is a beginning, it comes an end. so after everything finish went back hta for returning arms and photo taking. then FIs came to talk to everyone, the CIs, then i also talked. emotional it may be. especially when Fadzri sir came to talk. he cried. well, that was his last parade. im very happy to been able to have a chance to know him and work with him. his a great guy. so thats about it.
finally, i would like thank Fadzri sir and the other FIs for everything, all the CIs who were there, i learnt a lot of things from all of you and also the cadets, cause without you all there wouldnt be this parade.
yes, my dream has come through. now to the next dream, npap 09 ______ ________.
pics will be up once i get hold of them. bye to whoever reads this. haha
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Wednesday, June 18, 2008 @ 12:26 AM:
i think most probably my dream since sec 3 is almost crushed literally. haiz. i really hope tml have to meet ms chew. she is the head operations in npcc. haiz. think is cause of the letter thing. i really hope i dun get expelled from my goh cc position. like this all i have worked for will go down the waste. what to do. i'm really so sad now. i'm speechless now. somemore, i collected my no.1 liao. haiz. ok i dun wanna talk about it. just wish for the best tml.
today went to wanying hse for bbq. apparently it was quite different from the last time. dunno why either. play mahjong for awhile. i won 3 straight sets. haha. so happy.
k i'll write till here. let me pray for the better
Nicholas ah, its time to study. you no longer have a chance to postpone your exams.
Chow.
so come on, tell me.
Thursday, June 12, 2008 @ 10:40 PM:
oh i feel so irritated now. i wonder when will my letter be given to be. i'm feeling so vexed now. i really dunno what to expect. luckily i dun have nightmares of this sia. otherwise, it would be so haunting. i dun wanna lose my cc position. oh please, give me my letter soon. hopefully tml. which is the next training. i need to breathe normally again. i so scared. what if i lose it. i dun think i will have the mood to take exams. i worked hard for it. to lose it, is just cruel.
i'm quite tired today. went to climb bukit timah hill today. sometimes i wonder what are the things i allow myself to do. tml i have a super long day of training yet i let myself drain it all out. it was fun, but i think i may not be able to concentrate tml. why? i dunno why either. cant seem to focus recently. everything i teach in syf i tend to shutter a little. haiz. perhaps i have been too distracted for reasons i don't know. or do i? see, i contradicted myself. AGAIN. what the hell is going on.
sometimes, dun let the joke be carried too far. it might just
bite you back.
so come on, tell me.
Friday, June 6, 2008 @ 10:11 PM:
today was syfoc again. well, today ncc screwed up our entire schedule. how can they like last minute change training timeslot. haiz. so in the end just train the cadets in the drill shed. hmm. tthe guard of honour is getting better and better. very happy. cause esp my boys they are doing very well. hope by the time of the syfoc they will be up to standard. and most imptly, the number will reach 50 just nice. as for the girls, they can do much better than what they did today. abit standard drop. well, its still early la. in a way.
ok now im really starting to panic. i hope fi faizal will get back to me soon. and also i can get the letter of excuse asap. otherwise later my bloody school dun accept i can kiss my position goodbye.
im feeling quite tired now. what can i say, i have training cadets since 12 until 6. i deserve to feel tired. furthermore, carrying a sword in scabbard is quite tiring. but the feeling of holding it. indescribable. it makes one feel so YEAH! but thats at the expense of my left boot.:D
take care everyone. i feel tired.
so come on, tell me.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008 @ 10:31 PM:
wah shit..
this post is going to be full of vulgarites.
why must this world be so freaking unfair? i am so close to achieving what i have been aiming then exams must crop up. why must studies always interfere with our life? fuck you education. if the exams are going to ruin my chances in joining the syfoc im going to be super disappointed. haiz. how am i going to tell the FIs? how? i really dun wanna lose this chance leh. its once in a lifetime. im only a step away from it leh. i really hope to be able to postponed my exams sia. haiz. im so frustrated now.. exams or syfoc? haiz.. fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!! what to do....... im so stressed up.... how i wish i get injured now and im unable to participate. at least thats better than watching my cc position being taken away from me. haiz..... oh God, im gonna take my step of faith and believe that You will make a way for me. that You will help me. i cant breathe anymore and i really really want that position.
haiz... im tired... mentally tired... i need someone to talk to. someone who understands.
so come on, tell me.
Sunday, June 1, 2008 @ 11:36 PM:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!
There, i made my day..:)
cheers everyone!
guess what, someone did bother to msg.. haha...
so come on, tell me.