Sunday, May 4, 2008 @ 12:52 AM: whats the point.. and the story goes
i finally come to an understanding whereby some things are just better of not known. some things once you find out, you feel so bad you feel so bad you just want to die. why die when you can live? some people ironically would just die to let some one dear to live. why am i saying this? i recently realise that the people around me have changed. i no longer can talk to them like i used to. perhaps because now we dont see each other that often or something. but now friends have become acquaintances. its like a hi-bye relationship with them now. i really dunno why, and people say you meet life long friends in secondary school. im sad to say, if thats so, we'll never meet friends we will know for life. wonder why people would just like to keep things to themselves and just emo at one corner. think thats just the culture nowadays. yet again, i think about it, sad to say i kinda do that to sometimes. well, lets not dwell too much on that. lest, i get more emo as well.
my exam timetable are out, my syfoc timetable is out too. guess what, they clash. wtf. i really really really want to participate in the syfoc parade. its once every 2 yrs leh. somemore i really want to achieve something in npcc before i leave. and thats my only chance to do it cause i can try out for the GOH commander. i want to get that position so much. really so much. so what am i to do. i would really sacrifice my MYE for it sia. i know its not right. but then, teacher said as long can get letter from HQ, should be alright for me to sit at a later date.
ok, it's kinda of late. like now is 1am in the morning. cant sleep leh. dunno why.
i just realised something, now i live every day waiting for the next one to arrive.
life seems meaningless.goodbye apathy.
so come on, tell me.