Wednesday, May 7, 2008 @ 10:19 PM: dehumanised?!
today was yet another sian day for me(everyday is sian la honestly) something struck me today at assembly. the teacher said something about being dehumanised and living everyday just for the sake of it. you know what, thats entirely how im living now. i think i really dun live like a human anymore. i live everyday waiting for the next to arrive. theres seems to be nothing in life to look forward to. all im doing now is nothing but work. focusing only on the A levels next year. and yet, the school said they will be trying to help us to not fall into that "trap". but guess, they are a little too late. im already dehumanised. im no longer alive. im like the living dead. what can i do? i do not know. perhaps the answer has always been right in front of me. perhaps. i go to school everyday for the sake of passing the entire day?! i dun used to feel like this. im no longer the person that everyone used to know. have i changed or have YOU changed? am i different or are YOU different. dun judge others the way you dun want them to judge you. people out there! this means use your super high RAM thing in your head to process everything before doing anything stupid. you get it?! the very thing you think is funny might just hurt the person you are referring to. have a heart(and a brain), dun do such stupid things again. treasure the person thats right in front of you. the one that goes to school with you, the one that helps you with your work, the one that sacrifices himself for you. dun take for granted. God put that person in your life for a reason. dun regret when the person leaves you for it will be too late.
im supposed to feel relieved after all that you know. but yet i feel the same. perhaps im really dehumanised.
knowledge is power, but sometimes knowing too much might just kill you
softly.
so come on, tell me.