Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 10:30 PM: what the hell is going on with my life??
just fell out with my cell leader. so can someone tell me what on earth is Christianity about. isnt it about a relationship between us and this great man who died for us so that we could be forgiven? i really start to wonder now. maybe what someone told me before is kinda real. im not skeptic about my beliefs just that something seems to be missing. like a piece of a puzzle that is gone. even no matter how much you try to cover the gap up, there will still be a difference from the original. i think for my case, its more that i dont believe in what the church believes in doing. maybe the church im going now is not right for me. maybe i dont believe in being a charismatic christian. i really dunno. i do believe in God. its just that i dun believe in the way the church thinks is the correct way. haiz i really dunno. and i really dun feel like pondering over it at this point in time.
her birthday is coming up and shit i dun really know what to get her. die.......
tml got extra trng and now i got super stomachache. hope it recovers by tml.
so come on, tell me.