Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 9:02 AM: no, this cant be it
i think i finally know the meaning of waking up on the wrong side of my bed. these fews days has been quite bad. i never felt like this before. everything seems to be wrong. and its not supposed to happen this way. i feel so isolated. sometimes i wonder if reality is as what i know it should be. i cant understand why everybody must hide things from me. all i ask for is transparency. is that so hard to get? maybe i admit i dont really talk of about certain things. but yet, people are hiding so much that im oblivious of what i ought to know. it ain't fair to me. i believe that some things that concern me, i have the right to know. whether if you hate me, detest me or whatever that is, i can know. so will everybody in this bloody world stop hiding the truth from me. then when i say this, people will come and compare. saying that even in the political world there are things hidden from the people. i say, fuck you. you dunno shit about the political world. cause, even i dunno much about that. i need the truth badly. i dun ever want to linger anymore. its too taxing.
i went sleep hoping to forget everything. but yet the truth never fails to come back to haunt me.
so come on, tell me.