Friday, February 15, 2008 @ 10:21 PM: slience
today is awfully quiet and i dunno why. everything seems to like go past right in frony of me yet, i am numb to all. cant use words to describe the emptiness i feel now. cant understand why as well. i dunno what to write anymore. i dun want to start school yet. i have too many things i haven finish doing yet.
Tonight - FM Static
"Tonight I'm falling and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight"
what great lyrics..
so come on, tell me.
Monday, February 11, 2008 @ 9:32 PM: sick
today is the 11 of feb. another 8 more days before the release of the posting of schools. dun feel any excited at all. seem to have the feeling that i already expect where would i go. haiz. i dunno to feel happy or sad. either way, i really dunno. think i've fallen sick. got a real bad headache. actually, i have been feeling like this for over a week liao. but it got worst this few days. haiz. damn sian. nowadays, im getting more sian of life. really is nothing better to do. i mean literally. tell me what to do. im sick of life like this.
If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away
so come on, tell me.
Thursday, February 7, 2008 @ 10:50 PM: chinese new year lots of fun? i dun feel leh..
today is chinese new year.. so, HAPPY CNY everyone! so went visitations the whole day. very hectic. damn sian. dunno why this year like very boring. no fun at all. maybe cause getting bored liao. need smth new. haha. but not giving out angbao la. so i completed my temp job recently. got money now. but not a lot. need to go get a new peaked cap and maybe drill cane.. see how la. peaked cap more impt. cause i think going for marshalling duty once npap comes. haiz. campcraft comp like no hope can go help out liao la. sian. i need to clock finish my hours soon. got not much time left. so many things to do, so little time. haiz. finally, i finished my drill manual. so happy. but then need to pass to liling. haiz. wasted a lot of time cause my comp crashed. everything gone, so have to rewrite everything. worst thing is that my comp so unstable dun dare to type it in. later all gone again. so its
HANDWRITTEN!. ppl who read this in the future better appreciate it sia. haha..
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see
They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need
What u need, what u need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see
so come on, tell me.
Sunday, February 3, 2008 @ 9:14 PM: an inspiration
its been awhile since i've been to church and i feel ood to be back. been really tired out from my temp job. thank God tml is my last day and i get my pay.:) well, nothing much to blog about but want to just share this poem by Linda Ellis to everyone.
The Dash PoemI read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end
He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years
For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not how much we own;
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?
after listening to this poem i felt really touched. how are we spending our lives now? good or bad? are we spending our dash the way it should be? i hope mine will be the way i want to be spent...
so come on, tell me.