today first day in my life i started to work. quite an experience. except, i think my back hurts real bad now. the office had really nice ppl and im lucky for that. ell, whole day just packed stuff and moved stuff. the office ppl also joked ard. the atmosphere there was great. i dunno what to write now. a bit mental block. must be the fatigue. well, will just stop here. goodnight.

is it too late to apologise?

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be
And everywhere I am
There you'll be just realised that when you have Os, you wish to have hols. but now, i have hols, yet im so bored. got nothing better to do sia. just counting day by day. need smth to kill time sia. tml got a temp job at suntec. hope its not too boring or anything. but, at least thats smth to do. i really dunno what to write. just doing so for the sake of doing so. those out there if yo[u feel bo liao. try searching jeff dunham on youtube, he's a ventriloquist. its really funny. try it.

borrrrrrrrrrrring.

Maybe the season
The colours change in the valley skies
Dear God I've sealed my fate
Running through hell, heaven can wait today went back to sch for the campcraft trng. haiz. dunno what are they doing sia. all got classes yet nvr say. its freaking irritating to just go back for fun. at least i accomplished asking mr khoo to write a testimonial for me. wonder will it work though. hope i will not use it at the end. so after that went off, got fed up. lingered ard till about six then went home. i had this feeling that im going to meet someone, and i really did..:) been getting a lot of job offers recently, dunno why. must be someone out there anyhow recommend. for eg, got one fellow he called me to go down for an interview at eunos. he said the job pays $500 a week and its freelance. sounds too good to be true. anyone interested to go check it out with me tell me. its on tues. just found out that we have to report to sch right after we get our posting. well, that sucks.

Don't give up
I won't give up on you
I've been loyal without having something to prove
I'm not a killer
I'm just killing your doubts

Don't you know that
I'll be here forever
Even if you leave
And if you look for something better
Soon you'll see
That you're addicted to me today was the day of submission of the jae. since i cam back from malaysia, everyone who initially wanted to go poly came telling me that its better to go jc. they were persuading me the benefits of going into one. think i must be persuaded by them. cause, im trying for the jc! im trying for cjc now. hopefully i can get in. *praying hard. but after what someone said smth to me. it left me thinking, why am i so desperate to go to cjc after giving up hope going there? i really dunno. but i still remain hope to get in. but at the same time, it might be a bad idea. you (the reader) know why. i made a real careless mistake, i went to submit some infocomm course as one of my choices. haiz. so careless. but fuck poly, im going to a jc. YEAH!!

i got a temp job this thurs, pays $8 an hour. not bad. dunno how long are the hours though. anyone at the suntec area, im available for lunch!!. haha.

this love is taken its toll one
she said goodbye too many times before
her heart is breaking in front of me
and i had no choice
cause i won't say goodbye anymore well, got back my results ytd. dunno whether should be happy or not. enough points to enter a jc but not a very good one and is damn FAR away. have to take into consideration that i have to go back queenstown somemore. so i decided. im going to a poly. thats where the big headache comes. should go sp and take chemical engineering OR np to take chemical & biomolecular engineering. im more attracted to the np course. but then, at least i know got ppl i know going to sp and the same course. haiz. so how? damn irritating sia the feeling. anyway, i got till sunday to decide. am going to malaysia again. sian, i just want to stay at home or at least in the country. at least i can call ppl for advice. in malaysia call who? anw, bo bian la.

im glad to see you do well, its been like forever since i've seen you smile. im happy for you..

I'm a house of cards
in a hurricane
A reckless ride
In the pouring rain
She cuts me and the pain
Is all I wanna feel
She'll dance away just like a child
She drives me crazy
Drives me wild
But I'm helpless when she smiles feel that i've been kinda an ass recently. feel so much like killing myself. sorry to whoever were affected in a way or another by me. im too preoccupied by the things i haven settle. everything im doing is so careless. haiz. i need to get back on track. anyway, getting back Os results later. haiz. i dunno what to feel. just want to take, if need to cry then cry, go crazy then go crazy. i hope i have done well. i dun want to disappoint my parents. they have so much hope on me. i place my hopes on God now. He knows what is going to happen for He planned it. i believe in His plans for me. going to prepare myself now. good luck to all whoever taking their results..

i feel so damn bad and guilty. sorry weeling and weiling. get well soon. been going back queenstown very frequently cause of the campcraft training sessions. i really wonder, i really dun feel like going back yet there are so many bo liao people who purposely go back for fun. really is jiak ba eng leh. anyway, im quite pleased with the girls' team. they have really improved a lot. just a little bit more and they can make it. for the boys' team however, it was the first time i saw them training today. they are in deep shit. if they still do not want to train regularly, they can might as well dun participate. some of them can even ask what are they supposed to do. haiz. really dunno how to say them and also dun feel like saying them anymore. mr khoo came to talk to the team. hope it helps. he made the CIs join in doing. we were like wth. but then bo bian la. for the sake of their overall well-being we just went in. so helped out. i realised that i did everything faster than everyone, ending up i had nothing to do. perhaps, CI liao mah.LOL. i dun feel the same spirit we had two years ago. something is missing from the current thing and i cant seem to find it. its not my job to find it. its supposed to be instilled in them. or maybe, nurtured. well, there are more days ahead for training. for example, tml theres another one. its really tiring, i feel for the cadets. cause, i didnt even train so hard when i was a cadet. but for the CIs, its exhausting as well. i hope that we can do it for the comp, i know we can!

weeling, what happened? relax la.. everything will be alright.. just call me if theres anything.. im just a call away.(:

and all my tears, they roll down my face. why did you turn away? HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!! well, i know its late, but just cant sleep cause its way pass the hour when i feel sleepy.LOL. went to watch the fireworks just now. wasnt very fantastic but at least i did smth different this year. need to apologise to someone cause i kinda ruined that person's new year. so, sorry. i will make it up to you. promise.:). nothing much to write liao. what do you think its 4am in the morning!
goodnight.

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