Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 11:38 AM: final post of the yr
a recap of the yr? no way. i just want to get over and done with this yr. its been a sucky yr and i hate it a lot. awards never take, still got things just vanished from my life instantly. the worst part of not taking awards is that my teacher gave me a fucking lame excuse saying what there can be only 2 ppl getting it but then anthony could have gotten it like next yr as well. haiz. dun even want to talk about it nor do i want to blame anyone abt it. all i can say is that im just plain unlucky. what else about this yr? pastor said this year was a victorious year. he forgot to add that is for him only. no matter i still give thanks to God for the year. at least, i survived it. so what can i expect in the year to come? im in anticipation cause i will starting my new year in a new school and also as a newly appointed cadet inspector. i feel that i dun want to remain in this area anymore. some of the CIs are just plain superficial and im afraid of them. in fact, terrified. one moment they can be your friends the next the devil in them comes out. just received a damn superficial mail from them. its damn lame."this is not shooting or anything. but i hope the replies will not include any shooting." quoted from my email. lame right? these people like got nothing better to do. perhaps this holiday is the darkest days of my life. i dunno how i made it through but i have done it. some things i really yearn to have it back. but, it seems all so far away. putting my faith again? i think i still will. times like this, only needs us to grow stronger and face it bravely. so i think i will just end here. wish everyone(including myself) a blessed new year ahead.cheers!
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