Saturday, December 1, 2007 @ 11:09 PM: day 0
woke up very early even though i slept like at 3am. left the hse at around 645 together with my parents who were headed for m'sia. for me, i had to go to HTA for day 0 briefing today. it was damn tiring although there were some funny things that happened that made me laugh like siao. guess what? i look better as a CI than a cadet. i haven even become one and i look like one already. cool sia. whole day just had lecture after lecture. imagine i still have nine days to go. after the thing which ended like 3 plus. super tired after that. so went lunch the outram guys and florence who was damn freaking lazy. after that homed. received a call from weeling to go out for dinner(yes!!!company at last P.S. im not complimenting you, just glad i can talk cock) so went to meet her and xiwen at central(???) then chatted for a while before they wanted to go eat. surprisingly, i was not hungry so i couldnt make up my mind. so sorry eh?
i understand that you all want to know what exactly is the story. honestly, i would like to know to. i seem to be hidden away from so many things. i want to let go but i cant. its too hard. everytime im alone i think abt her and what she said. asking myself the same things again and again. question is not how it happened but why did it happened. i feel distraught. cant seem to think of why things in my life are going on this way. its haunting to everytime close my eyes and think abt the same things again. haiz. what am i to do?
Dear GodAvenged Sevenfold\
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
i simply love this song. just look at the lyrics.
"dear God, the only thing i ask of you is to hold her hand when im not around." oh God, please do so.
so come on, tell me.